"Life at the Turn"

"Life At the Turn".

I'm not sure that it's the milestone of turning 50 that has me motivated. I guess I want to believe it's just wisdom or an exercise of my personal mastery and self discipline, but I am motivated. Although, even as I'm writing this I'm thinking "of course it's because of your birthday knucklehead!" I've been plenty motivated before but haven't done much about it. Well maybe it is the birthday, and if so, who cares! The important thing is that I'm taking action. What ever moves us to action is a good thing, right? Especially when beliefs and actions are aligned... I suppose I believe fear has held me back in the past, fear of self awareness, fear of scrutiny and fear of being judged... by me.

I was inspired with a title a couple of years ago.It just flashed into my head like I was seeing the title of a book. I was contemplating life while I was golfing one day and a thought just popped into my head "My life at the turn". I was approaching "the turn". In Golf "the turn" is when you complete the first nine holes, called "the front nine", and you have golfed your way back near the clubhouse. You then have a chance to consider your game so far, get some nourishment, and proceed to the 10th tee to start the "back nine". Somehow the metaphor of finishing the 9th whole, grabbing a Hot Dog and an Arnold Palmer (iced tea and lemonade) and heading for the 10th tee to start the 'back nine' made perfect sense and was a moment of profound clarity. It kind of slapped me right in the face. On the one hand I thought of how inspiring such a 'book' could be but on the other hand, the inspiration had come to "me". About my life. I'm not sure if see I the potential for inspiration of any kind there! My life, it became clear to me, was approaching 50 and I was about at 'the turn'. How had I played my front nine, what was I doing for nourishment and was I going to play the back nine differently?

I have revisited that thought occasionally over the past couple of years and well, it's here. I'm at the turn and I'm wondering what my metaphoric Hot Dog and Arnold Palmer is and I am indeed wondering how I'm going to play the back nine. Hmmmm.

I believe I am indeed going to play it differently than the front and here are a few of the ways. I will play: Bigger (energetically), smarter, more fun, with more consciousness, more gratitude, more awareness, more love, more grace, more forgiveness, with less judgment and all the while doing my best to "love the experience". In sum, more love, less fear.

So here I go...